Thursday, June 25, 2009

Constant ponderables

It is everyone's desire to be desired above all others by one.

It is most people's fear to be taken for granted (if they stop to think about it).

It is some people's want to be pursued.

It is a few's need to be the strong one...which sometimes backfires on them.



It takes someone with major baggage (read: experience) to ponder upon all of the above at the same time.



Being with someone often feels like being on one of those old seesaws (not those wussy spring types nowadays). A constant up and down, along with a struggle to balance. What does one do when stuck on the heavy end? Or when one waits for lift-off and nothing happens?

The precarious nature of intimate connections with one other is magnified by awareness and focus. The resulting threat of loss is all the more terrifying, not to mention depressing. It's somewhat stressful having to think about all this again after a long break, especially if you wonder if you're the only one thinking about it.

I guess we all just want to feel treasured. Or possibly even loved.

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