Faithless

It occurred to me earlier, randomly, that I have no more faith left in men.

I do not trust them to keep their word.

I do not trust their spoken words to keep their meaning.

I do not trust them to keep me in their heart.

I do not trust them to keep loving me.

I do not trust them to be worth my time and what's left of my youth.

For every step I took before brought me closer to where I wanted to be. And when I got there, I was shoved off, most nonchalantly, simply because there was no space left for me.

And yet, I can't say, "Never again."

I miss having a soul mate, but shudder at the thought of having another.